It's all in your head!

Had a talk with a spiritual advisor this morning. Had to admit I lost my mind on the last "job" I attempted. It was difficult to explain in an economy of words, and there was much else to tell as well. Don't know what I'm going to do to survive, don't know where to go. Yes, my head just about exploded last month, but I'm feeling much better. Too much coffee, I'm sure, as I write this up at a coffee house.

Went to him in order to align a goal. I've wanted to go into a ministry for some time, since 2001 definitely, and amorphously for a long time before. But I've not been regular in church attendance and in conflict over a bunch of issues regarding the beginning and end times, so to speak. I'm worn out over it and may have lost the academic thread with which to deal concisely with those controversies but, made sick and tired of the projections, I'm sure they will resolve rationally.

All we could do was to put it all up to the Lord.

This evening comes a choice. I'll be going to chapel at 6 p.m., no problem, but the Suns tip off at 6:30 in conflict with Bible Study from 7 to 8. Originally thinking to head to a pub for the game after prayers (Not necessarily for the Suns, however much they might need them... don't be silly.) and some friendly words, I've thought further and will defer, hoping I catch most of the fourth quarter.

My Dad used to say that all you needed to see of a basketball game was the last five minutes. If it's another blow-out like the other night, straight home. It really isn't so much all about the game as getting out and being with people. Met an interesting fellow from South Africa, for example; we love being with the girls too, old coots that we are. You never know.

Did go to a nursing home with some people from church last Sunday. A service given for the residents, hymns from the old Baptist songbook. It was splendid. Blissful. Did a reading. There were some pamphlets passed from which I too should take to heart. The following called for a signature in acceptance:

Heavenly Father, knowing that I have sinned and I need the Lord Jesus Christ as my Savior, I now turn from my sins and trust Him for my eternal life. I asked Jesus Christ to forgive me, and to deliver me from sin's power and give me eternal life. I now give Jesus Christ control of my life. From this time forward, as he gives me strength, I will seek to trust Him and obey Him in all areas of my life.

Suppose Irene wrote that up.

Yea and yea. Peacefully so.
All in the head? That was a blind-siding hussy...

what don't kill you makes you strong enough.