I've an hour and a half before prayer meeting. I'd intended to go to one coffee place but their AC was down, so went to an alternative one. I find I've got minimal interest in the Internet.
Had to cut back on the Facebook "interaction" as there was none really and I was creating a problem for myself in seeking to actually have some, of a sort. A bizarre circumstance in that my sister's posts (she has refused to be a "friend") are mingling and that makes me feel awfully weird since we are estranged, and worse when she announces a "family get-together" to which I'm not invited. Used to that but to have it publicised was a bit much for me. Had to pare those contacts such that I don't have to be exposed to that again.
Also removed contact with my imaginary (not really, there was some exchange) friend, a woman with whom I'd become smitten. That she's half my age and disinclined seemed to heighten a sense a challenge... a totally unrealistic scenario. I've gotten lonely and discount these facts in some delusion, magically thinking we might get along simply as real friends. Just setting myself up for disappointment... it's all too cliche.
Have had my medication doubled and am quite lethargic.
Please God this all works out, that I get well and working again.
Got to talking with a woman at church; all my problems impede.
Wish we could go on and make real friends. Don't think so.
Had to cut back on the Facebook "interaction" as there was none really and I was creating a problem for myself in seeking to actually have some, of a sort. A bizarre circumstance in that my sister's posts (she has refused to be a "friend") are mingling and that makes me feel awfully weird since we are estranged, and worse when she announces a "family get-together" to which I'm not invited. Used to that but to have it publicised was a bit much for me. Had to pare those contacts such that I don't have to be exposed to that again.
Also removed contact with my imaginary (not really, there was some exchange) friend, a woman with whom I'd become smitten. That she's half my age and disinclined seemed to heighten a sense a challenge... a totally unrealistic scenario. I've gotten lonely and discount these facts in some delusion, magically thinking we might get along simply as real friends. Just setting myself up for disappointment... it's all too cliche.
Have had my medication doubled and am quite lethargic.
Please God this all works out, that I get well and working again.
Got to talking with a woman at church; all my problems impede.
Wish we could go on and make real friends. Don't think so.
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